Julie Fast
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What follows is an excerpt from Julie's home page and a link to that page, www.juliefast.com.

There are times in your life when you meet a person and you find an instant or near instant connection with that person for some unknown reason.  Perhaps it is because of a shared experience in reversed roles that triggered such a response between Julie and me.  I have a relationship with my daughter that is framed by my  experience as a parent.  Julie relates to parents with a keen sense of empathy as her mother is one of her support anchors in her life.  When I appeared as a guest on her radio show in April 2008, we met to talk over the subject of being a parent of a child with mental illness which was to be the topic of the show. 

One of Julie's remarkable talents is she is a verbatim transcriptionist and she proceeded to take 56 pages of hand-written notes of our interaction.  The common experience of our connection from different roles in a relationship with mental illness as an element of that relationship seemed to trigger a bond that we now share about how parents and offspring relate to the experience from their perspectives and the importance of empathy for the other person to acknowledge the difficulties that each person faces.

Another talent of Julie's is a sense of keen observation of what she hears in the messages that you send from your own choice of words.  Being a person with a mental illness, she is acutely aware of the difficulty of a person who suffers from that illness, she has crafted a finely tuned sense of observation of the mental state of those around her.  In spite of that keen sense of others, she is also aware of her own lack of personal insight and spoke of that openly and honestly when presenting to medical professionals at Oregon Health and Science University.  Her recovery plan recognizes the need of support from others in maintaining her mental health.

The phrase "one-of-a-kind" can be overused.  In Julie's case it refers to a person affected with an illness that has gone beyond simple recovery to a truly rarified place.  Award-winning, compassionate, intelligent, remarkable, inspiring.  They all correctly describe Julie.  When people think of stereotypes and how often they apply to people because they are often true, that simply does not apply to Julie.  She stands as an example of the possibilities of management of her disorder.  In doing that, she has attained what few in life attain even without the challenge of her disease.

Appearance on the Julie Fast Radio Show April 13, 2008

Julie's Story

Julie Fast grew up in a US military household, attending more than ten different schools before graduating from Punahou High School in Hawaii and the University of Washington in 1990. As a world traveler, she has lived in various exotic places such as Japan, China, and France. In other words she has had mood swings in some really great locations! Highly talented in the arts, and with an exceptional gift for singing, Julie always stood out as a radiant woman with high aspirations. Unfortunately, few of these goals were ever realized due to constant depression, psychosis and quite a few sneaky and devastating manic episodes.

A long time dream of Julie's has been to be a novelist, screenwriter, and Broadway singer, but due to bipolar disorder, Julie's life has taken a very different course and she has instead become a writer of self-care books and comprehensive health systems. Not unlike her last name, Julie has lived a fast life which has lead to intense self-discovery and constant health management, working relentlessly for balance in an otherwise rocky life.

At the age of seventeen, Julie experienced her first manic episode on a trip to Europe. The problem is that no one knew what it was and this started the constant refrain of WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU JULIE? that she would hear for the next 15 years.

For the next decade and a half she struggled with severe mood swings, not knowing why she had so much difficulty dealing with otherwise everyday conflicts such as maintaining stable relationships, completing academic programs (eight years and three colleges to get a simple degree), and keeping a job. Fiercely intelligent, her grades in school never suffered, but she was never able to devote herself to long-term career plans because of her emotional instability, and because stress seemed to overwhelm her more than the average person. Through the years, she carried a stop-and-go lifestyle with manic episodes of spontaneous travel and moves, experiencing great euphoric highs, followed by crashes of severe, immobilizing depression. She wondered what was wrong with her, why she couldn't stay in one job, why she couldn't maintain happy relationships, and why she had to keep moving to foreign countries when life became difficult.

In 1992, Julie met Ivan Kanis, a French native with whom she maintained a serious relationship for ten years. Despite its trials, she learned a lot about herself, as well as bipolar disorder, because Ivan was diagnosed with Bipolar I in 1994, just a year before Julie was diagnosed herself. The irony of it all still amazes her.

Julie was finally diagnosed with ultra, ultra rapid cycling bipolar II in 1995 after a rather spontaneous and traumatic (but exciting!) trip to China.

Once they were both diagnosed, Julie and Ivan tried numerous medications, Julie's totaling over 24, including various antidepressants, anti-psychotics, mood stabilizers, and anti-anxiety medications as well as medications to deal with side effects, only to find herself still unwell. Ivan responded much better and was able to find some stability with medications, though they did not take care of many of the chronic symptoms caused by bipolar disorder which is why he uses the Health Cards today to maintain stability.

The side effects of the medications began to destroy Julie's body. She gained 100 pounds (this is not a typo!) lost three teeth, had hair and skin problems and serious memory loss. She was also diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis. Julie did not have any of these problems before she started medications.

In 1998, three years after her diagnosis, Julie was on a trip in Hawaii, driving to Waikiki beach when her life changed forever. While driving towards the beach, she looked out at the breathtaking landscape of the beautiful palm trees and sparkling blue water and began to sob in despair over the fact that she was in one of the most beautiful places in the world and yet was so sick that she couldn't enjoy the beauty around her. When she stopped at a light at the intersection, she looked down and saw that both of her wrists were slit and blood was pouring out all over her arms. She looked up and thought, "I've finally done it. I've finally killed myself." Moments later she looked back down to find that her skin was once again normal and that it had all been a hallucination. It was at this point that Julie decided she would have to find a way to manage bipolar disorder, once and for all or she would be dead.

Julie returned to Seattle, Washington and met with her new psychiatrist Dr. Steven Juergens, and asked him what her options were. He said, "There aren't many options besides medications." So Julie decided to create her own solution and told him she was going to try to treat the illness with very limited medications. He was supportive and agreed to monitor her while she tried to find help. This was the start of the Health Cards System for Bipolar Disorder.

Julie says of that time, "I wanted to take medications. They work so well for many people and I was pretty devastated that they didn't work for me when I first tried them. I knew that there was no way I was the only person who couldn't tolerate medications. So I spent the next year creating a treatment system for people like myself who need more help than the medications could give. And it worked. Within six months I cut my symptoms in half and finally started to live life as a well person who manages an illness instead of someone completely controlled by bipolar disorder mood swings. Over five years later I still use the Health Cards every day to stay well enough to live a normal life."

Although Julie struggled for years with medications and side effects she has found a combination of medicines that she can tolerate. She uses these medications along with her Health Cards Treatment System to manage the illness on a daily basis and credits this combination for her ability to work, create and maintain healthy relationships.

Now that Julie has more control over her moods, she knows she has to continually make choices that help support her stability. She consciously surrounds herself with a large group of artists, entrepreneurs, and stable friendships, and is an avid karaoke singer, writer, and professional speaker. This new life takes a lot of work, but the results are worth it. She still struggles with bipolar disorder every single day, and couldn't overcome her obstacles without the aid of her own comprehensive health treatment systems, but she is living again and enjoying her life.

Julie has one goal these days. To help people with bipolar disorder and depression manage their illness so effectively that they can live a life of joy and happiness. If she can do it, she knows other people can do it as well.

Julie's web site



 

 
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